Being Me!

I was cleaning up chicken poop, feeding the cats, and trying to think of how I wanted to start my blog; when it hit me! I should start by just being me...as I am learning about being me!  I'm 47 and really just now learning who I am and how to be me.  I'm very excited.  I've lived most of my life being a daughter, a mother, a wife, a salesperson, and I still am those things but I'm finally realizing that I am so much more.

I've been trying to figure out exactly who I am for a long time.  It's always been very hard though, I think it is because I never really had a voice before. I just listened, never really spoke unless I was asking someone a question. I didn't know I could, or that I was allowed. When I did try and use my voice it usually came out when I was angry....I would explode!!  No one really listens to people that are exploding, they just want to get away.

Finally, there was someone who wanted to listen to me.  He asked me how I felt about working for my parents, and how I was dealing with all of the anger that I felt.  I said things out loud that I never had spoken out loud before; it was amazing! That's when I started to find my voice. He helped me by just listening.  He was a "rainbow in my cloud" that poet Maya Angelou wrote and talked about.  I will always be so grateful to him.

My life has changed so much since that day.  I've used my voice so much more. 

We're all on a journey whether we realize it or not.  I've always realized it, but I wasn't really excited about it.  I'm excited now!  I want to talk about it.  So, that's what I'm going to do!